Dropping off, again.

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Wesley shook his head and curled his fingers into Spike's shirt again. "No, I want to stay like this. With you."

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[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

"I could also lie down with you," Spike offered, but he moved enough that his shoulder was resting against the upright part of Wesley's mattress, which made the position more comfortable for him.. The knot of tension that had been tight in his chest was loosening now that it was clear that he had made the right decision to stay and take care of Wesley's more pressing needs than soup.

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"I could move over?" Wesley said. "Give you more room?" It seemed like a reasonable suggestion.

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Spike laid his hand gently in the center of Wesley's chest. "Stay right where you are. I've got a whole bed of my own, remember? You saw to that."

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Wesley nodded. "It's not as if I'll be much fun," he said. Then, "We should do something."

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"Like what?" Spike asked with a fond, amused smile. "Think about all you're ready for right now is falling asleep."

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"No, I mean, something fun," Wesley said. "Go out somewhere."

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Spike assumed that Wesley was making sense in his own head, but he certainly wasn't to the rest of the world. He took it as a good sign that the medicine was working. "That'll have to wait until you're better, pet."

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"Oh, I know. Did I forget to add that part?" Wesley traced Spike's jaw with a gentle fingertip, mesmerized by him.

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"Yeah, you did," Spike said, smiling at him and tilting his face slightly into Wesley's hand. "Where do you want to go?"

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"Somewhere cold," Wesley said dreamily. "So that we can have a roaring fire in the fireplace at night, and curl up around each other in bed."

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"I'm afraid I won't be much help keeping you warm," Spike said. "But I'd be happy to curl up around you anyway."

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"That's what the fire's for." Wesley blinked. "The warm part, not the curling around part. That part's just for fun."

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"I see you've got it all planned out." Spike trailed the backs of his fingers over Wesley's stubbled cheek. "I like that you plan things with me in them."

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"I wouldn't want to make plans that didn't include you," Wesley said, as seriously as he could manage. "I don't think that I could."

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"I know you could." Spike took in the vagueness in Wesley's eyes and amended, "Maybe not right now. But I'm glad you don't want to."

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"I want to be with you as much as possible," Wesley said. "Although you'll have to tell me when that begins to get annoying. I'm sure it will at some point. Just promise to be gentle with me."

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"That's never going to happen," Spike said softly, looking steadily into Wesley's eyes. "I'll always want you to be with me."

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"At some point you'll want to go out for an evening without me tagging along," Wesley said.

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Spike smiled. "You make it sound like you're some annoying youngster following at my heels," he said. "I'm sure we'll both want to be on our own now and again, but I'll always be looking forward to getting back to you."

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"You're everything I ever wanted," Wesley said in a hushed voice.

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"I'll do my best to live up to that," Spike said, though he couldn't shake the conviction that Wesley should have wanted more.

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"You already do." Wesley put his finger over Spike's lips gently. "You don't need to do anything differently. You're exactly what I want just as you are."

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"No one's ever felt that way about me before," Spike said as he clasped Wesley's hand, turning it and pressing a gentle, grateful kiss to its palm. "The only thing I'd change about you is that you're hurt."

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"And that will change all on its own," Wesley said. "Not quickly enough to suit either of us, I'm sure."

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

Spike kissed Wesley palm a second time. "It'll be worth the wait, having you well again. But next time I'll see what I can do to make sure you don't get hurt to start." If he failed, Angel wouldn't be there to swoop in and take charge, and the thought was terrifying.

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"I'll be fine," Wesley said, his eyes closing briefly. He meant both now and in the future.

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

"Don't suppose I could get you to agree to you spending more time translating at home by that fire you were talking about and leaving the fighting demons in alleys to me?" Spike asked. He was mostly joking.

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Wesley smiled wearily. "Some more time, probably. Not all."

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

Spike squeezed Wesley's hand and let it go. "I'll take 'some.' Not that I don't want you at my back in a fight, but I could do without the part where you're lying bleeding on the ground." He managed to catch himself before he said 'bleeding to death,' which was certainly truthful but also more likely to upset Wesley with how close a call it had been.

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"I'd rather like to skip this part again, myself," Wesley said. He was beginning to feel detached from his body, and at that point, that was just fine with him.

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Spike leaned his head on the mattress. "Then in this future you're planning, write in no more of you being hurt. Takes away from the fun we could have in front of the fire."

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Wesley stroked Spike's hair gently. "I don't have a pen. You'll have to remind me. When I'm not so high." He giggled.

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"Looks like you're feeling no pain, doesn't it?" Spike said, trying not to laugh. He wouldn't want Wesley to act this way every day, but he had to admit that he enjoyed seeing him so loose. "How many times am I going to have to tell you to take the medicine before you start hurting? Bugger the schedules."

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"Maybe when they give me the pills we can hide some of them away and use them when there's no reason to feel pain," Wesley said. He frowned. "When I'm not hurt. I wonder what it would be like? Although I suppose that's how people become addicts."

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Spike frowned a bit, trying to follow Wesley's train of thought. "I thought you didn't like being on the drugs."

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"I don't like needing to be on them," Wesley said. He knew it wasn't that simple, but he wasn't sure how to explain. His thoughts were whirling about. "But I might like how they feel if it was just for fun."

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

"Never thought I'd hear that from you," Spike said with a little laugh.

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Wesley's eyes widened and he grinned. "Some boyfriend you are, laughing at me."

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"If you don't want to be laughed at, you picked the wrong bloke," Spike replied, grinning in return. "But I'm not laughing at you. You surprised me."

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

"I did?" Wesley tried to remember how he might have done that, but couldn't.

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

"Didn't peg you for the sort who'd give up his control without a fight." Spike thought back to Wesley playing at taking his commands in bed and added, "Or a good reason."

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

"There might be a good reason sooner or later," Wesley said, recalling that they were talking about taking morphine when it wasn't strictly called for. "Am I making any sense at all?"

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Spike laughed again. "Now and then. Trying this stuff out for fun makes sense to me, apart from you being the one suggesting it. As long as you don't get addicted; I've seen enough opium dens and crack houses to last a lifetime. Didn't like them that much even when I was evil. Gets boring when your dinner's just lying there."

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"It's never as much fun when one's partner just lies there," Wesley agreed, thinking of something else entirely.

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Continues here (http://www.livejournal.com/community/reality_bends/74424.html).