Music, going out.

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Continued from here.

"Good," Wesley said. Spike's eyes were very blue in this light. With the music playing loudly in the background, Wesley added, "I love you."

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[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

His eyes crinkling up more than his lips with a warm smile, Spike stroked his fingers gently down the side of Wesley's face and said, "You must. You listened to the Ramones for me." He traced Wesley's lower lip with the tip of his finger. "I love you, too. More than I can tell you."

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

"Even if I don't want to put a safety pin through my ear?" Wesley asked.

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

"I don't want you to. It bloody hurts, and it wouldn't suit you," Spike said.

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

"No, it wouldn't," Wesley agreed. He caught Spike's hand and held it to his chest. "I guess I'm just lucky that you do."

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

Spike tilted his head and didn't give into the urge to ask Wesley to repeat himself. "We're both lucky about that."

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

Wesley knew that at this point he was just avoiding the things that he should but didn't want to be doing. "Do you think I'll ever look at you and not feel complete awe that you're with me? Because I honestly can't see it happening."

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

"I feel the same way about you, pet," Spike said with a little laugh. "I don't see it changing for me."

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

"Really?" Wesley asked. He knew that Spike would say yes, but God, he wanted to hear it again.

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

Spike held Wesley's eyes without wavering and said, "Really. You're an exceptional person, and it amazes me that you want me."

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

"I do want you," Wesley said. "Desperately. I can hardly think of anyone else."

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

"You're thinking?" Spike teased, though his stomach twisted happily at Wesley's words. "I must be doing something wrong."

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

Wesley bent his arm and ran his hand up along Spike's side. "I like thinking about you."

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

"Yeah? What do you think about?" Spike asked, sliding his fingers through Wesley's hair again.

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

"How lucky I am," Wesley said without hesitation. "And how gorgeous you are, and how badly I want to touch you. And how the way you talk to me makes me want to smile... should I go on?"

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

Apparently 'yes' was not the expected answer, so Spike asked, "How do I talk to you?"

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

"As if you want to give me everything." Wesley's hand slid underneath Spike's t-shirt -- he just wanted to touch skin. "And god, I love to look at you. I love how fearless you are."

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

"Most people just say 'stupid,'" Spike said with a smirk, leaning a bit to make it easier for Wesley to get his hand inside his shirt. "But I'll take 'fearless.' Sounds more impressive."

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

Wesley shook his head. "You aren't stupid. It's clear that you're very intelligent. I think you go to some effort to hide it, though."

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

"Why would I do that?" It was meant to be a rhetorical question to serve as a non-answer, but Spike realized after he said it that Wesley might just reply. Guess I'm not as smart as you think, he thought to himself.

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

Spike's skin was cool and smooth against Wesley's fingertips. "I've wondered," he admitted. "Because people will expect less of you? Or because you want to distance yourself from that part of you for some reason?"

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

Wesley, as always, was too smart for Spike's own good. "Could just be habit," he suggested, as though it weren't a sensitive subject.

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

"Habit from where?" Wesley asked. He was watching Spike's face carefully, and was aware that he might be treading on less than solid ground. "If you don't want to talk about it, that's all right, love. Just say."

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

"No, it's all right," Spike said, though he really didn't want to talk about it. He watched his fingers move through Wesley's hair for a moment before saying, "It's easier to get in the insult before someone else does."

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

Wesley understood immediately, but thought that Spike wouldn't appreciate sympathy. He tried to think of something helpful to say, and in the end couldn't come up with anything better than, "We've dealt with it very differently, haven't we."

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

Spike met Wesley's eyes again and gave him a faint smile. "I suppose we have. How's it working for you?"

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

"Not very well," Wesley said, thinking that if some kind words and the prospect of a happy relationship could cause him to break down, then he was in pretty bad shape. "How about you?"

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

"I was fine 'til you came along," Spike said, smiling more widely. "You see through it. I'll need some new tricks."

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

"No," Wesley said. He smiled back up at Spike. "It can be our secret. I'll try not to give you away."

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

"Thank you." Spike found himself entirely unable to look away from Wesley's eyes, and the smile on his lips would not fade. "I trust you."

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

Those last three words, simple as they were, made Wesley's heart ache. "I hope you do," he said. "I want you to."

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

"I do. Like nobody else." The statement felt a bit melodramatic to Spike and also rather revealing, but it was true.

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

"Good." There was a different song playing now, Wesley thought, and even that realization meant that he was noticing something about the music. That had to be good. "What's this one?" he asked.

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

Spike pulled his attention away from Wesley enough to ascertain, "'Blitzkrieg Bop.' We're about ten songs into the album by now. I told you they played fast."

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

Wesley was relaxed and comfortable. "I like it."

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

"You're full of surprises," Spike said, shaking his head.

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

"You keep saying that," Wesley said. "Sooner or later, I'm either going to run out of ways to surprise you, or you'll start to expect them, after which they won't be surprises anymore." His hand was still now, just curved gently around Spike's side, touching him.

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

Spike continued to stroke Wesley's hair, feeling the soft strands slide between his fingers. "That'd be all right, too, but somehow I think you'll keep it up."

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

Wesley closed his eyes. "I hope so."

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

"There's nothing wrong with knowing you well enough to have a good idea about what you're going to do," Spike said. The thought was comforting, really; he doubted that Wesley would ever stop surprising him completely, but what it meant to be that used to each other was very appealing.

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

Nodding slightly, Wesley said, "I know. There's something nice about it, actually. But I hope I never become completely predictable."

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

"I'm not worried," Spike assured him, taking advantage of the opportunity to study Wesley's face as much as he wanted without him looking back. "Though maybe I should be about boring you. In another day or two, you'll have figured me out completely."

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

Wesley rather liked that idea. "Would that be a terrible thing? Because I can try not to." Not that he thought he'd succeed, but he could try.

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

"Not terrible, no." Spike didn't add aloud, Unless you don't like what you find. "And I don't think for a second you could stop yourself."

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

Opening his eyes, Wesley looked up at Spike again. "I can't say that I want to," he admitted. "I want to know everything about you."

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

Continues here (http://www.livejournal.com/community/reality_bends/61300.html).