The end and the beginning.

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Continued from here.

"Thank you for giving it to me," Wesley said, just as softly, closing his eyes and resting his hand on Spike's chest, letting his thumb rub back and forth in a gentle rhythm.

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"I want it, too. I love you," Spike replied, settling his cheek against Wesley's hair. "You've given me more than anyone. Dru gave me immortality, and Buffy gave me a chance at redemption, but you, you gave me your heart. You gave me yourself. It's everything I've ever wanted." He could hear the emotion in his voice and he added more lightly, "Yeah, I'm bleeding sentimental. It comes out now and then. You'll have to get used to it."

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"I don't mind," Wesley said. "Actually, I like it. We're right for each other. There's something comforting in that. Peaceful."

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Spike was quiet for a moment, absorbing that comment. "I didn't think I'd find peace."

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Wesley raised his head and looked at Spike. "Don't worry," he said. "I won't let you get too peaceful. I'll be sure to do something unexpected and exciting every now and then, just to keep you on your toes."

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"I've got no doubt about that, pet," Spike said with a smile. "There's still a lot about you I don't know. You'll never stop surprising me."

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"Only in good ways, I hope," Wesley murmured, lying down again, grateful for the feel of Spike's lean, strong body against his own. "But I do hope you'll feel peaceful sometimes. If you want to."

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Shutting his eyes, Spike wrapped his arms more securely around Wesley, holding him as close as he dared. "I haven't had much of it, but I do. With you, anyway. Don't see myself becoming one of those Zen monks."

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Wesley was too comfortable to do more than chuckle. "No. I wouldn't want you to. I love you the way you are."

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"Mmm, I love you, too, pet." Spike lazily rubbed his face against Wesley's hair. "Besides, I've always hated chanting."

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"Why?" Wesley asked.

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"It's too repetitive, and it always goes on too bloody long," Spike explained. "I've got better things to do with my time."

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"I think it's meant to be repetitive," Wesley suggested, shifting to a position he thought he might be able to fall asleep in. "That's the whole point. Are you comfortable like this?"

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"Very." Spike slid his hands over Wesley's warm skin as he let out a contented sigh. "Are you?"

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"Mm. Very." Wesley smiled gently. "Perfectly."

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Spike smiled and nuzzled Wesley's hair again. "Good thing that word doesn't cause us any problems."

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Wesley made a small sound of agreement, slipped his arm around Spike and relaxing more completely into his embrace.

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"Get some rest, love," Spike murmured. He felt warm and safe with Wesley pressed so closely against him, and a sense of calm happiness spread through him. "You've had a busy day. Busy few months, really."

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"So have you," Wesley said drowsily. "Taking care of me."

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"I like taking care of you," Spike said. "When you let me," he added with a smile.

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"I like taking care of you, too," Wesley said. "When you let me." His voice was soft and somewhat slurred.

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Spike moved a fraction of an inch closer and groaned quietly but with satisfaction at the faint ache from Wesley being inside him. "I let you."

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"Good," Wesley breathed. "I want you to." He felt oddly determined not to fall asleep in the middle of their conversation.

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"That's why I do," Spike said, his limbs starting to feel heavy as he began to drift toward sleep. "And that's why you let me. That and because you couldn't sit up on your own for a couple of weeks."

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Wesley didn't want to think about that. "But I'm fine now. Because of you."

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"I tried. If I hadn't been there you would've tried to get out of bed the day after we got you home." Spike paused and then added, "And you're only almost fine. No more lifting boxes."

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"No more lifting boxes," Wesley said obediently.

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Spike gave a sleepy chuckle. "Yeah, you say that, but the next time you want a box moved you're still going to do it yourself, aren't you?

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"I'll try not to." Wesley yawned.

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Spike couldn't help but yawn in return. "Guess that's as good as I'm going to get."

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"Mmm," was all Wesley could manage.

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"Sleep tight, love," Spike murmured, relaxing further in their warm cocoon of bodies and covers.

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Wesley knew that he would. He roused himself enough to say, "You, too."

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"I will," Spike replied, his speech growing a bit imprecise. "As long as you don't go anywhere."

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"Not going anywhere without you," Wesley whispered.

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"Then we'll be just fine." Spike's voice might have been soft and sleepy, but in that moment he didn't have a question in his heart.

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

"Of course we will," Wesley murmured, and drifted off to sleep.

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The end (of the RPG, certainly not of Spike and Wesley).