Emotions running high

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

Continued from here.

"No," Wesley said, when what he really meant was yes, please, more. He was aware that he shouldn't do that -- say one thing when he meant another -- but he couldn't, simply couldn't ask for what he needed. He moved toward Spike just a tiny bit, wanting the comfort of his body but unable to ask for that either. Every muscle in his body was tense, his eyes burning with unshed tears.

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[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

"You're never going to stop feeling that way until you get used to hearing it," Spike pointed out. "So you've got two choices: listen and wait for it to get easier or ask me to stop."

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

As much as it made him uncomfortable to admit it, Wesley had to say, "I don't want you to stop."

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

"Good. I don't want to have to hold in how much I love you and how incredible I know you are," Spike said, unable to keep back his smile. He took Wesley's hand in his again and drew him a bit closer into the circle of his arm. "To be honest, pet, I love that it means so much to you. I love that I can give you something you haven't had enough of."

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

"I just..." Wesley cleared his throat, grateful for Spike's physical support. "I don't need to be told I'm incredible -- not that I mind it. I just need to feel that you accept me, that you see who I am and want me to be part of your life... God, I sound like an idiot."

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

"You don't," Spike said, his voice soft and encouraging. "You're telling me what you need, and I need that. I need to know." He wished that Wesley were meeting his eyes, but he kept going, anyway. "And I do see you. I do want you in my life. That's why I'm here."

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

"I need to know that you won't leave me." The way everyone else has.

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

Spike's response was swift and certain. "I'm not going to leave you. I will never want to. How can I prove it to you?"

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

Wesley laughed painfully, feeling the familiar ache of self-hatred in his chest. "By not leaving me, I suppose." He looked up at Spike. "Maybe, in time, I'll stop worrying about it so much?"