Finally facing the day. Sort of.

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Continued from here.

"She's got past the point where all she wants to do is play card games, watch the telly, and paint my nails," Spike said. "She'll be looking for adult conversation, too." He was struck a bit too late by the thought that Wesley didn't want to spend time with her, since he'd had such a negative reaction to the thought of going to see them. His mental picture of contentedly listening to the two of them talk about obscure texts and other topics far above his head began to fade, and he said, "Well, that's a long way off. She's probably too busy for a holiday, anyway."

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His concerns lessening slightly, Spike relaxed his hands but didn't let Wesley go. "I don't have to go if it's a problem, love. If you want me to stay, I will."

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

Wesley swallowed and shook his head. "No, you shouldn't tell her something like this over the phone. I'd imagine she'll be very upset, and..." He had to work to keep his voice from breaking. "It's better this way."

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

"You're more important to me than she is," Spike said. It was something of a shock to say aloud, since for so long he had worshipped at her feet, but it was true. "I doubt she'll be that upset, but you being happy matters more to me than how she hears it."

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

Every little thing Spike said, positive or negative, was chipping away at what was left of Wesley's self-control. "Spike, please..." He wanted to crawl back into bed and hide, but he wouldn't allow himself to pull away.

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

Wesley was looking more distressed with everything Spike said, and Spike had no idea what to do about it. "Sorry," he said, but he didn't know why he was apologizing other than for upsetting him. He smoothed his hands down Wesley's arms and let him go, not sure what else he could do.

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

As soon as Spike had released him, Wesley wished he hadn't. Spike would go away to see Buffy, and that would be the last Wesley ever saw of him. He knew it with a certainty he could feel in his bones. "Just go," he said harshly, because the alternative would allow Spike to hear just how close he was to tears. "If you're going to go, just..."

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

Completely at a loss, Spike tried to keep the concerned frustration out of his voice as he said, "What part of 'I won't go if you don't want me to' do you not understand?"