ext_1602 ([identity profile] flaming-muse.livejournal.com) wrote in [community profile] reality_bends2004-04-22 06:42 am

Could Spike have been right? Should they not have answered the door?

Continued from here.

"You're important to me, and if I had wanted to rush off and see them I would've left the minute I was corporeal," Spike pointed out, though if he had had the offer before of an actual role and some independence instead of just being Buffy's lap dog he might have made a different decision.

[identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com 2004-04-22 04:04 am (UTC)(link)
Supposing that was at least partially true, but knowing it wasn't the whole truth, Wesley said, "You should hate the thought that your options are being limited because of me."

[identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com 2004-04-22 05:17 am (UTC)(link)
"I would've thought you'd be happy that I was willing to back off and tell you to go," Wesley said. Then, suddenly swept by a wave of misery that he was certain was clear on his face, he added, "I'd go if I could bear it. Ask me to go anywhere else and I will."

[identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com 2004-04-22 05:37 am (UTC)(link)
"And you'll resent me," Wesley said, trying to appreciate Spike's touch despite the turn their conversation had taken. "You'll end up wishing you were -- " with Buffy -- "in London."

[identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com 2004-04-22 06:13 am (UTC)(link)
Wesley didn't know what to say, so he caught Spike's hand beneath his own and squeezed it lightly.

[identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com 2004-04-22 06:27 am (UTC)(link)
"That's a rare and admirable trait," Wesley told him.

[identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com 2004-04-22 06:52 am (UTC)(link)
"I suspect it drives most people mad," Wesley said, thinking about it. "To some degree or another."

[identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com 2004-04-22 07:11 am (UTC)(link)
"Been watching a lot of television in the past few days, have you?" Wesley asked, with a tiny smile.

[identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com 2004-04-22 07:15 am (UTC)(link)
"I provide just as much drama," Wesley said, almost apologetically.

[identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com 2004-04-22 07:27 am (UTC)(link)
"If you want to go to London, and you want me to come with you, I will." It wouldn't be impossible, Wesley told himself firmly. He could do it if he had to.

[identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com 2004-04-22 07:45 am (UTC)(link)
In which case Wesley would just have to wait and hope that Spike came back. "You could drug me heavily," he suggested, only partially joking.

[identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com 2004-04-22 07:47 am (UTC)(link)
"Well I don't fancy the idea of you going without me either," Wesley said. "Which isn't a request for you to stay here -- I might just need some time to get used to the idea of going." He didn't suspect that time would make much difference, but it couldn't hurt to be hopeful.

[identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com 2004-04-22 08:06 am (UTC)(link)
Wesley appreciated the reassurance more than he would have been able to say. "Then I'll just have to loosen the death grip I've got on you, won't I," he said lightly.

[identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com 2004-04-22 08:17 am (UTC)(link)
Reaching out with his free hand to touch Spike's face gently, Wesley said, "I don't want you to feel trapped."

[identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com 2004-04-22 08:31 am (UTC)(link)
Startled, Wesley turned slightly, taking Spike by both upper arms and speaking very clearly. "You can't possibly think that I don't want you," he said. "God -- do you have any idea how desperately I want you to stay here? Want to order you to stay?"

[identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com 2004-04-22 08:39 am (UTC)(link)
"Is that a request that I do so? Or were you just looking for clarification?" Wesley gentled his hands on Spike's arms, turning the grip into a caress.

[identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com 2004-04-22 08:44 am (UTC)(link)
"If I thought it would work... if I thought it was something you wanted, I'd order you to stay," Wesley said, trying to sound serious but suspecting that it was clear he wasn't, not entirely.

[identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com 2004-04-22 08:52 am (UTC)(link)
Wesley returned the kiss eagerly enough, and when it broke he suggested, "Or you could order me to come with you." He wasn't certain how serious he was.

[identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com 2004-04-22 09:09 am (UTC)(link)
"You wouldn't enjoy telling me to do things and having your orders obeyed?" Wesley asked, hoping that he was making it clear he was flirting.

[identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com 2004-04-22 09:44 am (UTC)(link)
"In certain situations I might be willing to obey," Wesley agreed. "Assuming you made it worth my while."

[identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com 2004-04-22 10:20 am (UTC)(link)
Wesley felt a reluctant, not entirely wanted thrill go through him at the thought. "Would you like that?"

[identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com 2004-04-22 10:38 am (UTC)(link)
With a slight tremble in his voice, Wesley said, "Anything you want. You know that."

[identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com 2004-04-22 11:12 am (UTC)(link)
"I always want to touch you," Wesley said, sliding his hand up over Spike's shoulder and back into the short blond hair, gently massaging the back of Spike's skull.

[identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com 2004-04-22 11:24 am (UTC)(link)
Continues here (http://www.livejournal.com/community/reality_bends/30164.html).