Talking, or possibly going to sleep.

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But I shouldn't need you to. And I don't like that I do. Wesley didn't want to say either of those things, so he curled himself into Spike's touch and sighed.

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[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

"You care for me, too," Spike said, his hands still slowly caressing Wesley's skin.

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

Wesley nodded, the movement tiny but perceptible. "I know."

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

"That's good, isn't it?" Spike asked, trying valiantly to understand Wesley's mood.

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"Of course it is," Wesley said gently. And it was, really. It was only the fact that he yearned for it so desperately that was an issue.

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

Spike felt like he was missing something, but he had no idea what. "Love you," he murmured, hoping that it might be the right thing to say.

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

Relaxing in Spike's arms, Wesley smiled. "Then I'm really very lucky."

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

"I'm not so sure about that, but I can count the number of people I've been in love with on one hand with fingers to spare, so you're at least in an elite group." Spike chuckled softly. "Though you might not be too happy about being lumped in with the other members about anything."

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Wesley tried very hard not to tense up. "I'd imagine you'll always be in love with her," he said, attempting not to sound jealous. "Angel still is."

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"'Love is not love which alters when it alteration finds'?" Spike quoted absently, the verse coming up from somewhere in the hazy depths of his mind. "Suppose I will, in some ways. Can't just remove someone from your heart when things don't go the way you might've wanted." Spike pressed a kiss to Wesley's hair. "But you'd know that."

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"Yes, as much as I might have preferred not to have learned that particular lesson." Wesley stroked his hand over the small of Spike's back awkwardly, attempting to apologize wordlessly for having brought up both Angel and Buffy in the same few sentences.

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

"Haven't enjoyed it much, myself," Spike said somewhat sadly. "But look on the bright side; it means I'll always love you, too."

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Wesley raised his head and looked at Spike. "Will you?"

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

Spike met Wesley's gaze steadily. "I don't let many people into my heart, but once I do they're there for good. Doesn't matter what happens."

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

That was startlingly reassuring, despite the multiple layers of meaning. Wesley rested his hand on Spike's chest just over his heart. "It doesn't matter what happens?" he asked, hoping for more detail.

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

"No," Spike said simply, his hands gliding gently over Wesley's back.

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Knowing that he was taking absurd advantage of the situation, Wesley asked, "Even if the person in question were to, say, push you to talk about difficult subjects?"

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

Spike grinned at the question. "Even then. Might be angry, but my heart won't change. You could rip my heart in a thousand pieces, and I'd still love you. Might not trust you further than you could throw me, but I'd love you." Spike shrugged, aware that that wasn't necessarily a good trait and that it had caused him huge amounts of pain in the past. "It's just how I am."

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"I intend to do everything in my power not to hurt you," Wesley promised seriously.

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"I know. Thank you." Spike wasn't particularly hopeful that he wouldn't be hurt but appreciated the sentiment, anyway. "Don't want to hurt you, either. Now, come back here," he said, urging Wesley to settle back against him. "I was comfortable."

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Wesley obeyed, lying down into Spike's embrace again. He brushed his lips against the delicate skin at the edge of Spike's ear. "Better?"

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

"Much," Spike replied, shutting his eyes briefly and enjoying the way that Wesley's solid body anchored him within the dizzy spin of the world. "Don't you think so?"

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

"Perfect," Wesley agreed.

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

"Be better if I didn't have the threat of a hell of a hangover looming ahead," Spike said, "though I suppose it gives me more reason to enjoy this now."

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Tracing a small spiral around Spike's nipple with the tip of his finger, Wesley asked, "Would a great deal of water help? I could get you some."

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

"Why do you keep wanting to go somewhere when I'm comfortable?" Spike asked.

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Wesley chuckled softly and rubbed his hand over the curve of Spike's shoulder. "All right, all right. I can take a hint."

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

"Hope that was more obvious than a hint," Spike said, sliding the fingers of one hand gently through Wesley's hair. The caress was as soothing to him as he hoped it might be to Wesley.

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

It required only the smallest movement to snuggle in closer to Spike and press a kiss to his throat. Then Wesley licked the same spot, sucking on the skin there gently. "You're mine."

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

Spike felt a little surge of joy at the word. "I am," he said, smiling softly.

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Wesley rubbed his finger over the slightly reddened spot regretfully. "It's a shame you heal so quickly."

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

With a shiver of pleasure at Wesley's touch, Spike asked, "Why's that? You seemed happy about it earlier."

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

"What?" Wesley glanced at Spike, then realized what he was talking about. "Oh. No, I am. I just... it would be nice if I could make a mark that would last. Even for a little while." He licked the spot again.

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

"If you break the skin it lasts longer," Spike said absently, focusing on the feel of Wesley's tongue. "Or break a bone."

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

Wesley tried to suppress a shiver of distaste at the thought. "You could put one on me?" he suggested, as a substitute.

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

Spike took a moment to catch up with the conversation. "I already have," he said, tracing the tip of one finger over the mark he had left on Wesley's throat earlier in the day.

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

"Oh," Wesley said, bringing his hand up to his own throat where Spike was touching it. He pressed down hard on the spot and felt the faint ache of a bruise.

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

"Should I be apologizing?" Spike asked, though he certainly wasn't sorry.

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Smiling faintly as he pressed on the mark again, Wesley shook his head. "Of course not. I... I like it." That was a bit of an understatement.

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

"Do you?" Spike ran his finger lightly down Wesley's throat. "Then I'll have to do it again... and make sure you're paying attention when I do."

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

"Oh, I was paying attention at the time," Wesley said, remembering. "I just didn't realize there'd still be a mark there now." He caught Spike's fingers with his hand and ran them more firmly over the aching bruise, arching his body against Spike's and making a little sound of pleasure.

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

"There is. Isn't dark, but it's there." Spike slid their hands lower and brushed them over the faint mark by Wesley's collarbone. "Left one here, too," he murmured, watching Wesley's reaction.

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

Wesley smiled and leaned in to kiss Spike while their hands were still linked. "Feel free to leave them wherever you like," he said. "I won't complain, I assure you."

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

"Have to keep that in mind," Spike said, returning both the smile and the kiss before his attention was drawn back to Wesley's neck. "I like you walking around with the shape of my mouth on your throat."

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

"So do I," Wesley said, closing his eyes and relaxing against Spike's shoulder again.

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Continues here (http://www.livejournal.com/community/reality_bends/26673.html).