Detour, continued.

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

Continued from here.

"I understand," Wesley said. "And I'm sorry it got to this point."

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[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

Spike gave a half-shrug and picked up the bottle to refill his glass only to find it empty. He set it down with a frown and glanced beyond Wesley to the bar. It seemed to be about three miles away, but it was probably worth the walk.

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

Wesley was beginning to suspect that little of this had anything to do with him -- that Spike had internalized the belief that he wasn't enough a long time ago. "Listen to me," he said seriously. "You are everything I could have asked for. There's no way in which you aren't enough. And I'm going to continue to repeat that until you believe me."

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

Spike shook his head. "You said, tonight, I wasn't enough. I gave you my love and my trust and it wasn't enough for you. I don't have anything else."

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

"What I said was that it was important to me that you believe that you come first," Wesley said, struggling to recall exactly what words they'd both used at the time.

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

"And if I don't, it's not enough." Spike looked up at him, then away again. "I can't just... feel things you want me to feel, Wes."

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

Wesley sighed raggedly. "I know. You're right, and I'm sorry."

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

"I want to give you what you want," Spike said, this time holding Wesley's gaze when he met it.