A little more playing before the work begins again.

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His arousal surging, it took everything Spike had not to thrust when he felt how deeply Wesley had taken him. He shuddered and moved his hand from Wesley's hair to his shoulder to keep from tangling in it too tightly. "Love this. Love you. God, I love you."

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Wesley groaned with pleasure again, pulling back slightly so that the head of Spike's cock painted his tongue with each inward stroke. The taste of Spike was intoxicating and he didn't want to miss a moment of it. He brushed one fingertip lightly over Spike's opening and sucked harder, working the foreskin back and forth over the ridge.

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Spike had to shut his eyes; if he kept watching Wesley he'd come before he knew it. Even without the sight of his intent face, he was spiraling close from the way Wesley was touching him. "You're too good at this," he gasped.

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"No such thing," Wesley said, pulling back just long enough to speak the words before engulfing Spike's cock again.

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"Yes," Spike said, not sure whether he was disagreeing with Wesley's statement or just approving of the way his mouth felt around his cock. The suction, the texture of his soft palate as the head of Spike's cock rubbed against it, and the skillful movements of his tongue were driving Spike wild. "God, yes," he groaned, shifting his weight to the balls of his feet as his body grew more and more tense.

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Making small hungry sounds now as the cock in his mouth got just a bit harder, Wesley slid both hands around to cup Spike's buttocks, relaxing his throat and breathing carefully through his nose.

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Wesley's obvious eagerness despite his own exhaustion made Spike realize that this was even more about love than about pleasure. The thought alone was nearly enough to send him over the edge, and he moaned loudly, gripping Wesley's shoulder and trying to make the moment last a little bit longer.

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Wesley trembled when Spike moaned, using both hands to jerk Spike's hips forward. This resulted in the head of Spike's cock slipping into Wesley's throat just a bit, the sensation making him slightly dizzy in the best of all possible ways. He echoed Spike's moan involuntarily, his fingers curling into the hard muscle of Spike's behind.

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"Oh, fuck, Wes..." Spike's cock was sliding into Wesley's throat, and Wesley was moaning and urging him on. It was incredible. It was too much. With a hoarse cry, Spike shuddered violently from head to toe and felt the world white out in a rush of water and come.

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Keeping as steadying a grip on Spike as he could manage considering their relative positions, Wesley swallowed around Spike's throbbing cock as he cried out, coming hard.

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The intensity of Spike's release made his legs threaten to buckle, and after the rush of his orgasm had died out he stopped fighting and collapsed down to his knees, pulling Wesley in for a fervent, breathless kiss. Tasting himself in Wesley's mouth just made Spike kiss him harder.

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Wesley let Spike direct the intensity of the kiss, wrapping both arms around the vampire and holding him. "Love you. Spike..."

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"It's a good thing, because I'm not giving you up," Spike said, holding Wesley tightly. "That was perfect, love."

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And completely without warning, with no knowledge that it was going to happen, Wesley began to cry. It was as sudden and unexpected as the sun going behind the clouds, and just as utterly out of Wesley's control.

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Spike's heart leapt into his throat as Wesley's face crumpled. "What's wrong?" he asked.

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"Nothing," Wesley managed to choke out, burying his face in Spike's neck as that was certainly the only place to hide. "I don't... know..."

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"Wes..." Spike helplessly held Wesley to him and rubbed his back with hands still numb from the force of his orgasm.

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Wesley clung to Spike as he cried, just barely managing to keep his hitching breaths from becoming full on sobs, grateful for the warm water pouring over them that made it easier for him to pretend that there weren't tears running down his face. He felt totally sidelined and could only hope that Spike knew it didn't have anything to do with him -- or maybe it had everything to do with him.

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"It's all right, pet," Spike murmured in Wesley's ear, trying to beat back his concern at his outburst and focus on soothing him through this burst dam of emotion. "I've got you."

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There had been so many times when he'd successfully managed not to break down, but now it felt as if it had all been for naught. Wesley couldn't quite explain why he was crying, and he wasn't sure it mattered. But he couldn't stop.

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"It's all right," Spike repeated, hoping that it actually was. He wasn't sure why Wesley was crying, and he was working on the assumption that he was overcome by everything that he had been holding back. "Let it out, love." At least Wesley was clinging to him instead of pushing him away; that had to be a good sign.

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Wesley tightened his arms around Spike and trembled with the brief effort of trying to suppress his tears, but he quickly abandoned the attempt and just let it happen. He tried to explain, badly. "I can't..." stop. He shuddered. "Sorry."

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Powerless to do much else, Spike kept holding and stroking Wesley as the water cascaded over them, washing away Wesley's tears almost as soon as they were shed. "No, don't apologize. I've got you. I love you."

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He really couldn't stop. Instead, Wesley just cried, holding on to Spike and taking desperate hitching breaths for air whenever he could manage them.

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The longer Wesley's crying went on, the more worried Spike got. He had no idea how to help beyond what he was already doing, and he didn't know why Wesley was so upset. "You're all right," he said, trying to make his words and his voice as soothing as possible.

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Wesley nodded against Spike's shoulder and drew a long shuddering breath, feeling the vicious tightness in his chest loosen just a bit. "I'm... all right," he repeated.

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"Are you?" Spike asked. "What's going on, love?"

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Taking another deep breath, Wesley shrugged helplessly in Spike's arms. "I don't know. I don't... I don't know. I'm all right." The worst of it seemed to be passing, and as the tension drained from his body it seemed to take all of his strength along with it.

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Crying that strongly wasn't exactly a sign of everything being okay in Spike's book, but he didn't want to argue now that Wesley was feeling enough better that he could talk. "A lot's happened," he said carefully. "And it was a hell of a blowjob."

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The laugh that escaped Wesley sounded more pained than anything else. He relaxed against Spike, feeling his breathing regulate itself toward normal. "I'm sorry. If I'd had any idea that would happen..."

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"You would've done everything you could to stop it," Spike finished, rubbing his cheek against Wesley's. "I'm glad you didn't. Sounds like you needed it."

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Wesley just nodded and continued to let Spike hold him. He didn't particularly care to analyze what had just happened -- was just relieved that it seemed to be over, and that it hadn't driven Spike away.

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Spike pulled his head back a bit to see if Wesley would look at him, though he wasn't going to force it. "Was it something specific or just everything?" he asked gently.

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"I honestly don't know," Wesley said shakily, making himself back off and meet Spike's eyes. "I suppose that would suggest that it was everything, rather than one specific thing."

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Looking seriously into Wesley's eyes, Spike searched them for the truth behind that statement. He was both relieved and mildly disappointed that he found no sign of prevarication, since then there was nothing in particular that he could fix for him. "Feel any better?"

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"I don't know?" Wesley blinked and thought. "Maybe. I feel... relieved."

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"You hold most everything in, pet," Spike said, caressing Wesley's back. "No wonder you're relieved to get some of it out."

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"I'm sorry," Wesley said again. He was very aware of the fact that they were sitting on the floor of the shower with water beating down on them. "Could we get up?"

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"Good idea." Spike rose to his feet, bringing Wesley along with him and not letting him out of his arms. He shook his head once to the side, dislodging some water that had gotten into his ear. "And would you stop saying you're sorry? You worried me, but you don't have to apologize."

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"I'm not sure I know what else to say." Wesley was very glad to have Spike's arms still around him. "I have to say something."

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"You didn't do anything to be sorry for," Spike said, his voice firm. "If you want to say something, tell me what you were feeling. Anything to keep me from thinking giving me a blowjob makes you that unhappy." He grinned slightly to show that he hadn't taken it that personally.

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"I wasn't unhappy," Wesley protested. "I think that might be why this is so confusing."

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Spike squeezed Wesley more tightly. "For you and me both."

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Wesley returned the embrace gratefully. "I'm sorry. The last thing I want to do is upset you."

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"And there's another apology," Spike said, shaking his head. "You didn't... all right, you did upset me, but only because I love you. It's not a problem."

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Continues here (http://www.livejournal.com/community/reality_bends/59417.html).