Emotions running high

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

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"No," Wesley said, when what he really meant was yes, please, more. He was aware that he shouldn't do that -- say one thing when he meant another -- but he couldn't, simply couldn't ask for what he needed. He moved toward Spike just a tiny bit, wanting the comfort of his body but unable to ask for that either. Every muscle in his body was tense, his eyes burning with unshed tears.

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[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

"Emotional's all right with me, love," Spike said, still searching Wesley's face for the key that would unlock the mystery of his reactions. "But I don't want to make you feel worse."

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

"I was..." There had to be a way to put it so that Spike would understand, without Wesley needing to say the unthinkable. "I was taught," he said carefully, "not to do that."

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

Spike shook his head in disbelief. "Not to have emotions? Feeling things is one of the ways you know you're alive. Or not, in my case, but you get the idea." He squeezed Wesley's hand and asked, "Is that really how you want to be? 'Cause I can tell you it's never going to work. Your heart's way too big for that."

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

"Yes, I suppose not to have them would be the ideal," Wesley said, concentrating on the first part. "Not showing them was considered sufficient."