Big decisions

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

Continued from here.

"I promised you I wouldn't leave unless you wanted me to," Spike said, coming to stand in front of Wesley and touching his arm with the gentlest of caresses. He wanted to pull him into a tight hug until the pain evident in his every breath was gone, but he was too unsure of the situation to offer. "If you want me to stay, I will. I want to. All right, love?" He could be careful with everything he did so that he didn't ever cross that line again, but he couldn't knowingly break Wesley's heart.

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[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

Caught in that gaze as he had been so many times before, Wesley wondered why there suddenly didn't seem to be enough oxygen in the air. He deliberately slowed and deepened his breathing. "I don't know," he said helplessly.

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

"I don't want you to act like a vampire," Spike said again. "I don't want you to be anything you aren't. What I want..." He took a shaky breath, finding the words harder to say than they should be, especially since he had admitted before how he felt. "All I want is to know that you love me. It doesn't matter how you show it."

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

"I do love you," Wesley said without hesitation. "And I'll do anything I can to show you. I'm just... I'm worried that it won't be enough."

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

Placing his hand over Wesley's on his arm, Spike said, "It is. I promise. You'll see."

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

Wesley drew a long, shuddering breath. "We have to stop doing this," he said.

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

"What?" Spike asked, feeling a flash of panic run up his spine.