ext_1602 ([identity profile] flaming-muse.livejournal.com) wrote in [community profile] reality_bends2004-06-16 01:15 pm

Riding in the car with boys.

Continued from here.

"So it's not a problem," Spike said. "Ask me anything you want. I doubt there's much I wouldn't tell you." Since you've already heard some of the worst things I've done, he thought with more resignation than resentment.

[identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com 2004-06-16 10:20 am (UTC)(link)
"All right." After a moment, Wesley asked, "How were you the same? Which sorts of things carried over for you, from when you were alive?"

[identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com 2004-06-16 10:30 am (UTC)(link)
"Because you didn't like those aspects of yourself? Or is that just the way things are when you're changed, do you think?"

[identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com 2004-06-16 11:07 am (UTC)(link)
"That's understandable." Wesley slowed down as the car in front of them did. "I think most people would react that way."

[identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com 2004-06-16 11:26 am (UTC)(link)
Wesley reached into his pocket for the slip of paper that had the address of the observatory. It was crumpled and probably not necessary, as he'd looked up the directions so that he could identify where it was located, but it still couldn't hurt to have it. He dropped the paper into the rarely-used cupholder and said, "No. Neither can I. Which I can assure you isn't something that I ever imagined myself saying."

[identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com 2004-06-16 11:34 am (UTC)(link)
"Other than just enjoying your newfound sense of power, you mean?" Wesley asked.

[identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com 2004-06-16 12:01 pm (UTC)(link)
Wesley nodded. "So you'd consider yourself an extreme example? Of someone who'd changed a great deal?"

[identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com 2004-06-16 12:21 pm (UTC)(link)
"Was who you'd been really so bad?" Wesley asked quietly.

[identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com 2004-06-16 12:39 pm (UTC)(link)
Unsure what to say, Wesley reached out and squeezed Spike's arm briefly. "Since I like the man you are now, it's difficult to feel much for him. You don't miss it?"

[identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com 2004-06-16 12:46 pm (UTC)(link)
"If there was anything I could do..." Wesley lifted one shoulder in a sort of half-shrug. "I'm sure there isn't. But if there is, tell me?"

[identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com 2004-06-16 12:55 pm (UTC)(link)
"The things you miss," Wesley said.

[identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com 2004-06-16 01:17 pm (UTC)(link)
"It's definitely preferable in this line of work," Wesley said. "You're less likely to be debilitated by serious injury, for example."

[identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com 2004-06-16 01:36 pm (UTC)(link)
"You broke your back?" Wesley asked, unable to keep the concern out of his voice. "When?"

[identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com 2004-06-16 01:58 pm (UTC)(link)
That was a bit more than Wesley could absorb in the amount of time it had taken Spike to tell it. "How long did it take for you to heal?"

[identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com 2004-06-16 02:10 pm (UTC)(link)
"Puppies?" Wesley raised an eyebrow in Spike's direction.

[identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com 2004-06-16 02:15 pm (UTC)(link)
"I suppose there are plenty of other things she could have done that would have been much less helpful," Wesley said, imagining Drusilla wandering off and leaving Spike to fend for himself.

[identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com 2004-06-16 04:37 pm (UTC)(link)
"It must have been very painful," Wesley said, and he wasn't just talking about the physical injury.

[identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com 2004-06-16 05:45 pm (UTC)(link)
Keeping his eyes on the road, Wesley reached over until his hand found Spike's thigh, and then he rested it there, hoping to provide comfort. "I'm sorry, love," he offered.

[identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com 2004-06-16 06:13 pm (UTC)(link)
"Ah yes," Wesley said, giving Spike a quick glance to let him know that he was teasing himself as much as the vampire. "I always find a good quote makes me feel so much better when I think of all the things I wish hadn't happened."

[identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com 2004-06-16 06:20 pm (UTC)(link)
"I still wish..." Wesley stopped himself. "I suppose wishing that it hadn't happened is rather pointless. You might not be where you are today if things had been different, and I certainly want you here."

[identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com 2004-06-16 07:00 pm (UTC)(link)
Wesley wondered if there would ever be a time when Buffy's name being mentioned didn't bother him. "You're starting from scratch," he said.

[identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com 2004-06-16 07:28 pm (UTC)(link)
"That won't be necessary," Wesley said, smiling gently.

[identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com 2004-06-16 07:57 pm (UTC)(link)
"Maybe I just shouldn't," Wesley suggested. "Ask, I mean."

[identity profile] wesleysgirl.livejournal.com 2004-06-16 08:12 pm (UTC)(link)
Continues here (http://www.livejournal.com/community/reality_bends/43933.html).