Talking, eating, yadda yadda yadda

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Continued from here.

Spike was glad that Wesley's back was still to him, since then there was no reason to have to meet his eyes. "I'm sure people have their reasons for their feelings," he said as neutrally as he could manage. "Either way."

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[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

Spike couldn't possibly believe Wesley, and on some level he would have preferred not even to hear that statement, even if Wesley believed it at that moment, since ultimately it wasn't true. He knew that he had to answer, though, and he didn't want to hurt Wesley by dismissing him entirely, so he finally said, "It's nice of you to say, pet."

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

Wesley felt his shoulders tighten. "You don't believe me."

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

Sighing, Spike glanced at Wesley's back and then looked away again. "I don't think you're lying to me," he said, feeling like he had no safe way out of the conversation.

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

"Of course not." Wesley stirred the food to keep it from sticking to the bottom of the pan. "So you think I'm fooling myself." Deep down he knew that that was at least partially true -- not that he'd side with Angel over Spike, but that it wasn't as simple as Spike coming first.

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

I wouldn't've said it quite like that, but..., Spike thought. "I think you were hurt by someone you care about, and I think you want things to be more black and white than they are. You can't just turn your feelings off like you're acting like you have, and at some point you're going to figure that out."

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

Part of that was a bit too much like something Lilah had said to him for Wesley to handle, but then, he knew what to do with things that fell into that category. He took a deep breath as subtly as possible and reached to turn off the heat under the pan, continuing to push the food around.

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

Spike could see that Wesley was tense, but he wasn't sure that he could do much about it. He was going to speak the truth as he saw it. "Am I being too perceptive for you again, or do you think I'm wrong?" he asked.

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Wesley stared at the food for nearly a minute before answering. "I don't like that you don't trust me."

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

"I do trust you," Spike said, rising from his chair and going to place a gentle hand on Wesley's shoulder. "I do."