Talking and cuddling in bed.

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Continued from here.

"It's not..." How I see myself. Spike shook his head, feeling foolish. He was a vampire, not a man. "There's no good reason."

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[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

"So as it turns out, this is actually an improvement on both of our typical relationships, is that what you're saying?" Wesley found himself grinning back at Spike in mild disbelief.

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

"Sounds like it, doesn't it?" Spike chuckled softly. "But that's part of the reason I want to be sure I'm not... following the wrong impulses."

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

"You have a lot of regrets," Wesley said. "You know that you aren't responsible for things you did when you didn't have your soul." It was almost a question.

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"Of course I'm responsible. There's no 'Spikelus'," Spike said, rolling his eyes. "It's all me. Yeah, I didn't do it with the soul, but I still did it." He shrugged. "I'm not going to start brooding about it, but I can't forget it's in me."

[wesleysgirl.livejournal.com]

Wesley sighed. "I'd like to say something helpful, but I'm not sure what that might be."

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"You don't have to say anything," Spike said, trailing his fingers lazily over Wesley's shoulder. "I'm just trying to explain why I'm not as willing to let my - what did you call them? - 'vampiric instincts' take charge with you as you seem to be."

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"It's fine," Wesley said, trying to be reassuring. "Honestly. However you want to handle this... it's all right with me." Now that he could see a possible end to the disagreement, he was starting to feel hopeful.

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

"It's not just about me, pet," Spike replied. "I know you said you're trying to accept all of me, but that can't be the only reason you offered to let me do something that goes against all your training and survival instincts. I'd like to know why you want it. Is it just curiosity?"

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"Not just that, no," Wesley said. "But that's certainly part of it."

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Spike tilted his head slightly and studied Wesley's eyes. "Then what? Will you tell me why you'd want me to bite you?" He wasn't sure that he'd like the answer or that Wesley would even give him the full one, but if it was his choice whether or not he was going to do it he had to understand what Wesley wanted.