Getting reacquainted and making plans

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"I think so." Wesley was more concerned with what was going on in Spike's head. He lifted Spike's chin slightly until their eyes met again. "What's wrong?"

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"I don't know what to do," Spike admitted quietly, his gaze fixed on Wesley's gorgeous blue eyes so close to his. "I need the dosh, so I've got to go out, but I couldn't fit into that life again even if they'd have me. My other choice is to sit around doing nothing while you buy my blood and cigarettes, which I can't do, either." He gave a half-hearted grin. "Guess I really have changed."

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"Of course you have," Wesley said, torn between kissing Spike and staying perfectly still, caught in his gaze. "I suppose you'll just have to find something to do other than collecting old debts. I'd imagine you'd make an excellent bodyguard, for example."

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"Yeah." Spike's voice didn't hold any enthusiasm. "As long as they don't want to go out during the day." Feeling oddly lost, he splayed his hands on Wesley's back, needing the feel of the now-familiar flesh to anchor him.

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Wesley ran his own hand down along Spike's spine, tracing each vertebra separately. "Shh. Don't worry. We'll sort it out."

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"It's not that easy, pet. Even before the soul I was helping save the world, making a difference. I know I'm not a hero -" Spike's mind flashed back to Buffy handing him the amulet and calling him a champion, but the pride that he had felt at the time had faded. "- but I've got to be good for more than being a bouncer or a bodyguard." He wasn't sure if that was a statement or a question.

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"Since when," Wesley asked, some astonishment evident in his voice, "does saving the world not qualify one as a hero?"