Getting reacquainted and making plans

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Continued from here.

"I think so." Wesley was more concerned with what was going on in Spike's head. He lifted Spike's chin slightly until their eyes met again. "What's wrong?"

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"You don't know what I did," Spike said, meaning far more than just his part in closing the Hellmouth. He shut his eyes for a moment, unable to handle what he saw in Wesley's face. Pulling together his piecemeal armor, he gave Wesley an honest smile and said, "But I'm glad for your help with the rest."

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"You think you've done things that would horrify me," Wesley said, as lightly as he could. "The truth is, I've... there are things I've done as well. Things that are... maybe too difficult to talk about. So I understand. But I do need you to know that the good things you've done are worth something. They have value in and of themselves, not just as attempts to atone for the bad."

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

Spike knew that someone as ultimately good and moral as Wesley couldn't understand what it was like to have lived for more than a century as a soulless vampire, but he was comforted by the thought that Wesley was at least sympathetic. "I know they do, and I'm not Angel; I'm not looking for atonement. I know it isn't possible." Grateful that he could, Spike pulled Wesley a bit closer. "And I doubt there's anything you've done that would horrify me, Wes," he added, merely stating the truth and not demanding more than Wesley was willing to share.

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"Shh," Wesley said again, this time because he really didn't want to talk about it. He wanted to kiss Spike until he drove that haunted look from his eyes, but instead he just wrapped his arms around him and held him close.

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Spike let himself absorb the comfort for another minute before he loosened his hold; he wasn't going to dwell on facts he couldn't change. "So you're up for a demon pub crawl tonight?" he asked. "Have a few pints, maybe play some pool? Might as well have some fun while we're out."

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"Absolutely," Wesley said. "Sounds like a fine idea." He was relieved that they'd have something to do that evening -- going out would make the time pass more quickly, which in turn meant that tomorrow night would arrive that much faster.

[flaming-muse.livejournal.com]

"Good." The conversation having moved onto a more mundane topic, Spike smiled more easily and rubbed his hands up Wesley's back. "'Course, if we don't have any luck finding my old mates, you might have to spot me for the drinks. Pretty sure I can find a way to make it up to you," he said, curling his tongue behind his teeth.

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Smiling slightly, Wesley pressed his body against Spike's. "I'm sure you can."